November 2011
1 post
Mid to late 19th century America saw trying times for people all over the country. While legalized slavery oppressed the lower class in the south, the harsh beginnings of the Industrial Revolution enslaved many free men, women, and children in the north. The incarcerating labor placed on the lower class of America was intended for progress and profit for the nation as a whole. The questions that...
June 2011
2 posts
summerstock
Every year I work my ass to the bone in school. Bring home good grades. I do it all telling myself, summer is next and then I can relax. Here it is June, and as always, I can’t relax. Fortunately that just makes me get into projects with a passion.
This summer I have been learning about ten different songs on guitar that I can now almost sing with as well. I’ve always wanted to be...
February 2011
1 post
i am posting this specifically for ryan alves.
December 2010
2 posts
dunno why im so upset about her keeping the baby. guess i have a lot of unresolved issues with that year of my life. to date though i’ve accepted my mother, started paying off my debts, dedicated months of my life to school, written short stories again, and made myself happy by kicking ass by writing essays like a motherfucker. totally pissed that i have to take math still. totally stoked...
good luck chuck
its like im dane cook in that one movie where he’s an asshole.
the last four girls that i have dated and dumped have all married the next guy and had kids with them.
June 2010
2 posts
state of play
WORLD CUP KICKED OFF! mexico tied with south africa. i normally hate soccer but a worldwide event just feels so internationally unifying. i like that sense of community on such a large scale.
why can’t more people share that desire for family and humanity? apparently the senator who drafted the Arizona Immigration Law is now planning on “re-writing” the constitution by drafting...
happier than ever
but bored as a board.
its hot in sacramento, im broke, and don’t know anyone. what’s a good thing to go out and stare at for a couple of hours? or places to walk around?
i may be board though, but i’ve never lived with someone im so close to and honest with. its like every moment (despite the heat) is comfortable. i feel like im living in a world of cool cotton sheets and iced...
May 2010
10 posts
i wish to destroy
something beautiful today.
i just had one of the greatest weekends ever. katie’s graduation was fun as i got to sleep comfortably in the bleachers, had a delicious lunch with her entire family who loves me, partied with all of her peers who thought i was just the cutest drunk guy ever, studied for 11 straight hours with katie and realized how awesomely smart she is (also was able to turn a...
why does elizabeth banks get knocked up on tv so often?
bmxbandits
1984australian cinematic glory starring nicole kidman.
i should be doing homework instead.
i recently discovered the United States of Tara. fun show. and now im off to do my work like a good boy. summmmmmmer. come on already.
daria in bed
audition in the morning. then apartment application process. then statistics. then anthropology project. buuuuuuusy day. a lot of future planning stuff. cant wait to live in the moment again. two weeks. hot diggity damn. i really hope we get this apartment in the morning.
my brother paints amazing pieces but is lost in life. i hope for the best for him. and i want to steal his latest mural to put...
i wish there was more time to spend with everyone i love. i hate having to blow people off or tell them that im too busy for them. even more so when they are my best friends and my family members. im in school and working to better my future but sometimes i wonder if its worth these years of isolating myself from the people that i want to be with. i live with my mom and brother now and i still see...
wtf is a 64th note?
clifferded:
justincessant:
never in my life have i had to play 64th notes. fucking classical music.
btw, after two years of studying for tests i forgot how much fun it is to practice for an audition. i’ve missed you music classes. so very, very much.
seriously, cut time or GTFO composers.
40 bpm is how it gets done.
wtf is a 64th note?
never in my life have i had to play 64th notes. fucking classical music.
btw, after two years of studying for tests i forgot how much fun it is to practice for an audition. i’ve missed you music classes. so very, very much.
bone'd
i am a music major. i can play many instruments. i love music. i plan on playing it everyday for the rest of my life. one band inspired this when i was 11 years old…
and now my favorite hat has their signatures on it and they all heard my story how one song they recorded when they were in high school inspired me to pick up a trombone and party hard.
thank you Ed Hernandez of the Mad...
MOVING TO SAC
chico is a no-go due to them changing the eligibility of one class i took to transfer.
so now me and katie are apartment hunting in sacramento.
i have no idea what im doing, its all kind of being played by ear. im happy that im doing this with someone though who i am completely happy with. we had our first big argument ever over apartments and ended up fine and smiling by the end of the day.
so...
April 2010
2 posts
been feeling disconnected from everything lately. like i can’t believe what is going on. i keep looking at the calendar and the weeks are flying by insanely fast. cant believe im already going to be leaving town again. im very much stoked.
i think i need to find study partners for my stats class. i went from understanding everything to kinda just memorizing the formulas to flat out reading...
life, lebowski, and what-have-you
two things of importance:
1. Just bought three tickets to see THE BIG LEBOWSKI at the RED VIC CO-OP THEATER in HAIGHT-ASHBURY of SAN FRANCISCO at 9:15pm on april the 20th, 2010. If you enjoy fine cannabis, anything by the Cohen brothers, Jeff Bridges, John Goodman, Steve Buscemi, John Turturro, great music, White Russians, hearing pointless trivia about the movie ALL NIGHT, then come with me. I...
March 2010
5 posts
movin on up, finally getting a piece of that pie
just moved all of my possessions up to chico and into katie’s empty room. it was a fun ride where my friends and i played movie trivia games for two and a half hours straight.
katie showed me the town house we’re going to hopefully be moving into come june 1st. i love it. its a 2bed/1.5bath two story with tile floors downstairs. it has a backyard. it has a giant master bedroom with...
So Not Raven
i have been staring at the calendar on my phone intensely for days on end.
eigt more school weeks left. nine if you count finals. eight weeks of work left. moving all of my stuff out this weekend. ten more guitar lessons for my cousin. its all winding down so fast.
i feel out of place, like my mind has already left vacaville. i dont hang out with anyone but katie, when she’s in town or i...
Pretty Much.: IDGAF anymore →
Seriously, I will wear my hair however I want to, dress however I want to, say whatever I want to, listen to whatever I want to, think whatever I want to, and do whatever I want to.
I will get my hair cut however. I will dress in whatever clothes I want. I will wear whatever shoes I want. Put…
i let a friend tattoo a smiley face on me once. it came out as a penis. i wish i made that...
collegeses
i was accepted to sac state friday.
waiting on chico and san francisco, think i’ll go call them in a bit.
got off work at midnight last night, couldn’t fall asleep until about 3:30am. woke up at 6:30 for school. have three tests today. geology, statistics, and anthropology.
i’ve been feeling really gay and emotional lately. i teared up during a video on illegal immigration in...
February 2010
2 posts
fortune smiles on some
i got a car this week. completely mobile again.
my latop connexts to the internet again.
i found $50 in my pants i forgot about.
im doing welll in all my classes.
i rocked the house at los reyes on kareoke night. i love when audiences chant my name without me paying them too.
acceptance letters come out soon. i forgot i had applied to san francisco. (learned that though they cut many music...
December 2009
1 post
lately
i rarely update
but im alive. work is hating me with more cuts in hours. finally hung out with my co-workers last night, it was everything as lame as i imagined. when you’re 20-something year old parents trapped at a KFC in middle management i assume your home life is less-than-enthralling.
christmas was dope. bought hella gifts, received hella argyle sweaters and shoes oddly. i never ask...
October 2009
2 posts
nervous and excited for vegas
im at school. in several short hours my gal pal will be picking me up with her older sister and then we begin our drive to Pleasanton to meet up with their family. i will then begin the long, exciting drive in a cramped car full of women to Las Vegas to celebrate Katie’s 21st birthday.
im excited as i’ve never been to Vegas. im nervous because i’ve never gone out for a weekend...
as of late
i hang out with almost no one. my roommate is always gone so im pretty much home alone all the time. im beyond broke, budgeting to make rent, and now katie’s family wants to fly me out for some suprise trip for her birthday somewhere. i dont think i will have the money and im freaking out. i hate rich, white people. so very, very much. why cant they just go to chuck e. cheese like i do every...
September 2009
5 posts
sick bro!!!
been sick since sunday. bought a new pipe. typing an essay at school on my day off. about to cap off the day though jamming with all my buds from the music department, i get to do back up vocals and maybe some leads. it shall be epic and fun. maybe even good-natured.
for some weird reason
i find myself online today searching for good schools for film studies and cinematography. don’t know why but out of the blue i think my love of analyzing cinema and preaching film history is over-taking my love of teaching and playing music. i think im going to keep my ear to the ground with this major.
FREE!!!
so after an unnecessarily busy night at work i received a phone call from my mother. apparently her boyfriend’s son is receiving a free car from his grandmother and so they are going to give me his old car for free. which is only slightly awesome as MY father originally bought the car for my little brother. after a year of not having a car, im finally going to get it.
can’t be too...
weird night
so last night i came home from work to find my roommate jon had started drinking some beers. i was bummed out as he has been staying sober a lot lately and i hate him when he’s drunk. thats when he revealed to me that his 93-yr old grandmother is in the hospital with intestinal complications and in severe pain. normally i wouldn’t care much for a dying old woman because thats wheat old...
fmylife:
Today I was arguing with my dad. I called him a geriatric fool. He replied with “Well at least I know who my biological father is.” I have no idea if he’s joking. FML
the reason why i know i’d be a bad father. i could never help myself from saying such fucked up things for a laugh.
and on a more serious note:
txtsfrmlstnght:
(917): so after morning sex, she rolled a joint and...
August 2009
2 posts
fmylife:
Today, I was trying to have sex with my boyfriend, David. I moaned his name and he whispered, “I’m not David.” Then, with an Italian accent, he said, “It’s-a-me! Mario!” FML
i miss living with a girlfriend. funny sex was the best.
on that note, financial aid is run by retards. i’ve been fucking around with the IRS for two weeks for copies of my mother’s and my own tax...
txtsfrmlstnght:
(713): I decided you couldn’t drive after you asked where the time circuits were on your Altima (832): I wanted to see November 5, 1985
oh MAN do i miss partying. nights in which i “drink” now usually consist of me watching re-runs of Mad Men alone, wishing i wore a suit everyday, smoking a pack of cigarettes, and wondering when this year will be over so i can...
July 2009
1 post
its so confusing
to be pining oddly for three people at once.
one who screws me over emotionally yet meets all of my dreams as a female. one who i pine over as the girl who “wants me” yet does not want to date (which all of my friends say is the dream.) and one who i pine for because i know deep down that she is the perfect mate in her attitude and personality.
i wish all my stuff was moved...
June 2009
3 posts
Odd fellow
For the first time ever I was used for sex. I felt so dirty the morning after when I offered to make pancakes or coffee and she just said she was busy and had to leave. I should’ve known something was up when we spent the date drinking 40’s and discussing our ex’s. Felt weirder when I realized I would have not prefered a one night stand again.
Maybe I’m just bored but I...
i dreamed a dream
and it was fucking jurassic park status. i jad to escape from velociraptors soooo many times. i finally realized it was kind of a lucid dream, but the only things i could think to do were to change the colors of the dinosaurs and invite more people onto the island. it just led to rainbow colored death. after a while i just got too fed up with running for my life all night so i stabbed myself in...
wild, crazy, sad
dunno how much i want to say in my state but…
i’ve cried a lot. i cant believe what my mom did. im going to have many talks with my grandmother. im in talks with my ex as for some reason i miss her more than anything in the world and im strangely considering moving back to chico to be near her and my dad. she is honestly the greatest girl in the world and i was a COMPLETE douchebag...
May 2009
18 posts
i may have fucked up
the past couple of days being unemployed i have had a lot to think about and i have come to the conclusion that i more than likely fucked up. by moving back to vacaville i think i dumped possibly the greatest girlfriend ever.
several movies have been watched that i used to love to watch with katie which only led to inside jokes and memorably couple moments. i have yet to meet another person who...
fmylife:
Today, I was visiting Munich when a drunk man and his friend started to pick a fight with me. They were making fun of my accent, and after a while, he grabbed a live swan by its neck and starting attacking me, using the swan as a club. A drunk man used a live swan to beat me up. FML
i want to be these drunk guys more than anything in the world.
beating people up with live water foul is...
well since im awake and drunk
i miss my family. it was kinda sad that the only people who ever support me are my friends.
even sadder that its the only way its been. just once in my life i want someone blood related to me to come and watch me perform. its been 12 years. seriously. i’d like some family support some day.
musicianship
after tonight i learned one thing. other musicians are my best friends. we can be open with each other emotionally even if we aren’t friends because we know the perils of the stage. the few people i think are my friends can never have that bond.
even if we are all sarcastic assholes to each other with emotional walls up to the world, it all comes out on and off the stage. with and without...
standing up
i may be pretty drunk and may regret a comment i posted on my roommates bulletin but fuck her. tonight was my very first perfomance doing stand up comedy. personally, i think i sucked. then again, i think that of every performance i’ve done for 12 years now. i got some laughs but was sad when my biggest laughs came from fucking with some old drunk dude trying to be a heckler. he was a dick...
Everyday
sydvishhh:
I hear some new rumor that was spread about me from a friend, or a coworker, or somebody I just met. I’m so sick of this. Stop talking about me. I don’t do anything to deserve this stuff coming out of your mouth. I am a nice person who gets along with practically everyone. If you want to know something about me, come to me and ask, and don’t believe everything you hear.
So here, let...
puuuuuuuunk!!!
i wish i was in a punk band.
or even pop punk band. i need a garage in my life. to play in. three more years. i hope i can make it. direly.
i like drunk posting
spent the night taking with the one guy i consider a step brother before my legal stepbrother.
gained a new awesome friend,
fuck tianna’s text.
i miss my dad.
sydni is cooooooooool.
i desire sleep and ska now.
money for nothing and chicks for free
today i showed up to school with the help of the ever-lovely Sydni. it was there that i had received a solid B in my sociology class. given that i took my final drunk, that was a good way to end the class.
my more important post comes from my quick gab with the financial aid office about student loans of which i know nothing about. turns out im eliglble for the PELL grant in the full amount if i...