weird night
so last night i came home from work to find my roommate jon had started drinking some beers. i was bummed out as he has been staying sober a lot lately and i hate him when he’s drunk. thats when he revealed to me that his 93-yr old grandmother is in the hospital with intestinal complications and in severe pain. normally i wouldn’t care much for a dying old woman because thats wheat old people do. but jon has a different relationship with his grandmother. you see… jon was born and “raised” in Queens, New York by a junkie/druggie of a mom. when he was 7 or 8 she abandoned him and he was fortunate enough to locate his grandmother and his father. in her 70’s she took jon in and raised him until he moved in with his dad later on. so jon isn’t losing his old, silly grandma, he’s losing his equivilent to a mother so that was a weird night.
later on in the evening he informed me that it was time to start thinking about moving out. not immediately. but after this semester. jon doesn’t really want it to be like that but after this bout with his grandma i think he realized that he needs to be with his son everyday. a boy needs his dad, as they say. so i have two to three months to find new lodgings and i dont know where to go. i can go to sacramento, i can go to chico early, or i can stay here and finish out the school year at solano. im confused and just wish i didn’t have to move all the time. i agree with jon and im EXTREMELY happy that he wants to be the best father he can be because little Julian needs a great father. im just bummed that the pad just started to feel like home, and now i have to leave again.
my dream is not only to be a music teacher now, but to also live in the same house or apartment for more than a year. someday justin…. someday…
