So Not Raven
i have been staring at the calendar on my phone intensely for days on end.
eigt more school weeks left. nine if you count finals. eight weeks of work left. moving all of my stuff out this weekend. ten more guitar lessons for my cousin. its all winding down so fast.
i feel out of place, like my mind has already left vacaville. i dont hang out with anyone but katie, when she’s in town or i have the gas money to drive up to chico. i went on a geology field trip and car pooled around marin with two guys all day working on our studies. it wasn’t until the end of the day that we gave each other our names and realized we were all in the same class at the same times on the same days. i dont even care enough to look up from my books anymore to see the world around me.
lately i’ve been staring at trees and clouds. non-stop. staring contests. just gasping in awe. loving everything about them. complete ecstasy that i’ve always shared with nature.
someday i will be sober again.
