May 14 2010
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i wish there was more time to spend with everyone i love. i hate having to blow people off or tell them that im too busy for them. even more so when they are my best friends and my family members. im in school and working to better my future but sometimes i wonder if its worth these years of isolating myself from the people that i want to be with. i live with my mom and brother now and i still see them about an hour a week. i miss my dad. im really depressed that i didnt get into chico, i really wanted to be near him so i could visit him just a little bit more. i miss feeling grounded. i miss afternoons in the sun with my friends. i miss my friends. i miss people.
